update

15 days since my last post. All is well. I am recovering nicely. I barely feel that knife lodged in my back anymore. Silver linings.

The double edged sword

Social media. Not using it as much as I used to but checking in to say happy birthday was just the opportunity that the universe needed to show the pic in my newsfeed. The pic being the wedding pic.Oh well. It was just another turn of that knife sticking out of my back. But oh no, I am not bitter.

The Wedding to which I was Uninvited is today.

Enough said. Keeping busy as a distraction. Obviously not working.

4 days out

Still having a hard time coming to accept my friendless status. It is such a change for a social person like I have always been. Of course as we age and our jobs and families require more of our time some friendships do fall by the wayside, but to wake and find yourself without anyone to call with that witty joke or the daily outrage? That is pain. 

This Saturday is the wedding to which I was uninvited. My friendship of 30 years was thrown over and I was summarily dumped. It snowballed into a plethora of opportunities to remind me of how shitty my life is at the current time. I do know that this shall pass but it's the waiting for that to happen that I am struggling with.

What a bummer of a post. For that I apologize to my only reader. myself.